A big mistake~! I must not do it ever again~!

2dae, i was in a bad mood and blue whole dae cos yest i had made my bf veri unhappi. i broke my promise 2 him cos i trusted a fren and told him something which my bf wont allow mi 2 tell anyone. i admitted my mistake 2 my bf cos i felt guilty and i tot i must b honest 2 him. initally, i told him i will tell him wat isit 2dae but he could nt wait last nite and called mi while i was on bed. i knew tis meant tt our rship meant alot 2 him. he was silent on e fone and fr his tone i could tell he was seriously angry wif mi. i had learnt e severity of my wrongdoin and told myself i must nt repeat it cos he had warned mi. he said i shd nt do it even if i trust e oth party.

i dun wan 2 lose him cos of oth ppl. he's veri impt 2 mi. therefore, i decide 2 post tis here 2 remind myself. i was glad and relieved tt he forgave mi. i knew it was nt anything i did tt made him forgive mi. i knew it was cos of his luv 4 mi. i was sure. so nw i want 2 win bk his trust 4 mi cos i'm nt sure whether he stil trusted mi as mch as b4. i can understd if it was affected. i wont blame him. e tot of him buyin Ferrero Rondnoir 4 mi made mi more sad... :( cos i was so bad 2 him but he alw is so gd 2 mi~!

just nw, i apologised 2 him but he did nt c my tears... its ok. i was happi 2 c him cos i did nt attend any briefings 2dae cos of him. i hope i can b a gd gf fr nw onwards. i hope i can control my emo-ness and temper. else i will try nt 2 mk him unhappi more agn. i love him <3.

1st beauty forum post~!!! Please support~!!! Thanks...

So long no update my blog cos been bz... mebe oso nt much inspiration... got family prob :( oso haven counted my angbao $ yet. aniwae, he stil treats mi e same.. fren said mebe he treats mi as a sister lor.. dunno la heck care of it lol~!

i was tinkin of startin a small beauty forum here... any female supporters? hee... cos i haven continued readin my beauty book so tot of tis. haven continued cos bz lor.... den haven posted new blog abt it haiz... if tis is successful den i will mk it often

had saw this brand Shills at Sasa Bugis yest, omg! i was surprised! cos i tot it oni exists in Taiwan lol! anyway, please click on e link under 'online shoppin' on e rite of my blog cos there are updates of new products ;p

Let mi start wif tis 1st beauty question. hope 2 get mani comments here sia :)

Qn: Any recommendations for BB cream? Currently, i'm using Maybelline BB cream but i found that it is unsuitable for my skin cos in e beginnin, it drys my skin. eventually, it does not control my oil production on my cheeks. so now, i dunno want 2 buy which brand.

Maybelline BB cream

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1st time to be offered chocolates from him~!

2dae, i'm moody.... been lk tis tis few days :( when he looked at mi, i juz smiled bk. no mood 2 say anithing or joke wif him. i'm moody nt cos of him. its my hormones... :(

i dunno he can tell i'm blue anot. when e ger i hate called mi, he offered mi a pack of KitKat! i was surprised but happi~! tis is e 1st tm he gave mi chocolates~! of cos tis was nt an act of affection lk couples gif their partner chocolates la lol~! but i'm stil veri delighted lol~! it seemed 2 mi he noe my feelin 2dae... in my heart, i'm tinkin of verifyin wif him but i dare nt.

in e aftnoon, oni left us in e office for mani hrs hee... he's playin Bejeweled e whole dae in his Iphone~! aiyo, he's so slacked lol~! he asked mi 2 dl games so we can play tog. den he joked isit i oni dl free ones.... he's so bad... den i said cos i waitin 4 e new version la lol. den they asked mi wat new features wld thr b? den started 2 joke among emselves... he reli hopes 2 play wif mi 1 dae uh? lol. he said its easier n faster 2 play wif fingers rather den by mouse lor. i told him i usuali play in Facebook. suddenly, he started 2 play his mp3s. when i was doin my scannin, he asked mi wat music do i listen? so i told him. yeah, he wan understd mi more agn lol~!

den i noe he lk Lee Hom cos he's v talented n tried diff kinds of genres. he went 2 c his concert b4 at msia wif frenz. he gt free ticket but watched at e back 1 lol. it seemed lk he dun lk '38' gers cos he said he was nt impressed wif their behavior at e concert... oh, he mk mi tink he's reli a nice n nt so open guy hee... he dun lk Jay cos he alw sings same style and Jolin :( he said she's 'sai' cos her surname's Tsai. but i argued tt she's not 'sai' as a person wat. he said last tm Lee Hom stayed somewhr near his sch in US. he knew Lee Hom's name is 3 colors lol! seem lk we've same topic lol. he's so gd 2 play songs tt i wan hear :) oh, he's so gd 2 mi lol. mebe i tink 2 mch lol. when i went 2 toilet, he stopped e music. when i was bk, he played. wah... lol.

when i tok 2 tt ger i hated agn, he can hear. aft i hanged up, he asked 'ppl call u 2 congrat u uh? lol'. 2dae, i gt 2 c him at bus stop agn. my bus so fast arrived. i tk initiative 2 bid him gdbye. heng he saw my gesture. else i may malu lol. he looked stunned? lol. 2 bad, oni can c him awhile thr... but nvm wonder if he's happi wif wat i juz did anot keke.

tml i cant c him mch but nvm... yest, my bf swam wif mi despite havin slight runnin nose. he hoped i appreciate tis. i noe he's gd 2 mi... sth bad had happened 2 him... will acc him all tis while... he's poor thing...

Sad :'(

2dae, i feel so moody... :(

tis mornin, i oni got 2 c him in e mornin... he looked tired. i noe he did look at mi. but we nv greet each oth 'gd mornin'... den aft 9AM, he's nowhere in sight oredy. i tot he's in e oth office. den ltr, i realised he had gone trainin. no wonder...

i feel moody n sad not cos of him. its cos of my bf. last nite, he said he'l b happier if i can attract guys. tis makes mi feel he's not worried that i will runaway if there's a better guy chasin me. so wat abt havin trust n confidence in mi? did he tk mi 4 granted? well... 2 mi, as long we r nt married, anythng can hap. even if i trust him, i wont trust oth gers.

jz nw, smsed him. he oni replied aft gt hm cos his hp batt dead. den he nv rly agn.. i guess muz b cos he's chargin his hp in his parents' room so no rly mi. but i oredy told him i sad, he shd pay attn 2 mi rite? mebe go chk his hp once awhile whether i smsed him anot. he's alw lk tt, nv b thr when i'm down :(